Gloomy Sunday

I love Sundays. It is the only day of the week where I have no reason to go about frantically, deal with mindless people, chalk my face on and dress up, or do anything that requires a lot joules. I call Sunday my day of rest however not from a religious standpoint but just recooperation. I can sleep in and not feel guilty about it. 11am seems to be the best wake-up call possible. Any later and I will suffer from headaches called over-sleep syndrome. As my duty as a daughter, I clean the bathrooms, vacuum and dust. Cleaning 3 full bathrooms is tiring. I miss when I only have 1.5 bathrooms to clean. Oh the luxury of this new house and how labourious it is to maintain it. I complain but I don't mind. I am like a guest in this house. I go out early in the morning and don't come back until 9pm. I eat a meal, shower and sleep on school days. Work days are completely reversed. I get up at 5am to make it for work for 6am half-asleep with a styroform cup of coffee in one hand. I work my 8 hours and then proceed home to nap and eat and watch my dose of Oprah and the ridiculous Young and the Restless. Sundays mean 3 homecook meals that does not really require of me to spend money. Sundays mean countless hours on the internet. Sundays mean attempt to study but drift off in daydreaming. Sundays mean laundry. Sundays mean potential shopping dates with my mom aka. she pays. Sundays is family time at the Tham's Household.

Last night was so much fun and was such a long day. Starting with my 5am wakeup call for work, being ridiculed for being a "bad listener" and working with a newly revised dream team. Coming home and chillax with the parents for their 3pm coffee and snack. The absolutely and most fantastic Khang calls at 3:30pm to give me the low down of his studying progress which determined my Saturday plans. It was Jien's and Olenka's birthday dinner at Mikado South. Funny thing is that both of them are northsiders but Mikado was the only restaurant to accommadate like 40 people. This was my first time there and it wasn't so bad. Khang and I were reluctant to go at first because it was sooooooooo far but we made it. HOLY KAJOLY I didn't expect to see so many familiar faces working and eating there like Cindy and family, Dustin, and Gloria. We sat with our cabbies (Darren, Jeff, Pat, Matt, Alex, and Andrew) due to the fact that there were a lot of unknown faces from Olenka's side of it. Prior to this, Khang wasn't the biggest fan of sushi but we decided to go all out and even eat the raw stuff *DOUBLE GASPS*. It was fun with cake, dirty jokes (on my part most probably) and good company. I can't complain. Gahh there was a water patch on the floor and I slipped like a moron. Aiya. I dislike you heels. We headed over to Gateway Rec Center for some good old bowling and it was fuuuun except for my sore thumb and nail that ripped off. How lovely. Next thing you know, Khang and I crashed on the couch in my house watching CSI at 2:15am. I've been up for almost 24 hours so obviously I fell sound asleep missing the exciting show and woke up to the annoyance of Ashley's tone of "FELICIAAAA!"

Happy 20th Birthday to Olenka, Jien and Cindy.

Halloween is next. What to do?

Birth Date

Your Birthdate: April 30

Your birthday on the 30th day of the month shows individual self-expression is necessary for your happiness. You tend to have a good way of expressing yourself with words, certainly in a manner that is clear and understandable. You have a good chance of success in fields requiring skill with words. You can be very dramatic in your presentation and you may be a good actor or a natural mimic. You have a vivid imagination that can assist you in becoming a good writer or story-teller. Strong in your opinions, you always tend to think you are on the right side of an issue. There may be a tendency to scatter your energies and have a lot of loose ends in your work. You may have significant artistic talent and be very creative.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

So bored that I am about to....

J asked me if I was happy today. I said no. There are many things I want to change to attempt to that I am over my head. I think I deserve more. I think I am capable of more. I think I make way too many excuses for my actions. I think I am just confused. J asked me what I see myself doing in 5 years. I told him, probably knocked up by a loser with 14 tattoos and me working in Sobey's making ends meat.

THE LIFE!

it's a tuesday

I am starting to really dislike Tuesdays. I sleep in, feel extremely lazy and then I have to motivate my chunky butt to get ready to go to school at 6:00pm. Now that is sooo gross but I will do it. I should be studying for my classes and I managed to squeeze in 20 minutes. My mind is too consumed with uncontrollable thoughts of ice cream, magic tricks and unicorns. Hahaha just kidding, I am not that crazy.

I have found this blog to be a method of solacement for me again. I used to blog pretty religiously and I think I will again. I think it takes a form of instability to update this for the world to see and read. I really don't care about that aspect, maybe that is the attention needy side of me. Hahaha. I am an attention whore I admit but whatever. :p

You know you are really sad when you miss being a couch potato. Ever since last year, I have not watched any new shows. I am so proud of myself. I guess not having the WB really helps. BUTTTTT I am on torrents constantly getting the goods. I have the OC and Desperate Housewives from last week but I haven't watched it yet. I'm picking a good day to splurge on it all.

I really can't wait for this long weekend. I work little this weekend so I have more time to do everything. Maybe I'll catch a movie, hang out with some worthy friends, buy the new Switchfoot CD, take pictures with Khang, eat turkey and just be carefree.

anger is not an option

So I bitched and ranted endlessly to realize that it was such a waste of energy.

D-O-N-E and F-O-R-G-O-T-T-E-N.

I talked to Andrew on Friday as we strolled around campus. I felt so cool because he had a walkie talkie. (haha see it's the simple things) We talked about school and whatnot and I felt so lost after the conversation. Again I have no idea what to do with myself anymore. I know what I want but attaining it is vital. I can say whatever, candycoat everything and I'll still be in the same spot as before. I am surrounded by smart and goal oriented people all the time and GOOD FOR THEM. I am honestly in awed at them. That is when I am at my weakest and most insecure.

GAWD I AM SO INSECURE!!

Everybody just tells me that it will be fine. Then there is people that are naturally smart and puts in very little to get B-I-G results. Then there are people who studies really hard and gets B-I-G results. Then there are people who studies really hard and fail everything. Then there are people who are just lazy hoping everything will drop onto their platter. Then there is me. Useless and worthless.

I R TIRED.

I'm avoiding everyone. If I don't return calls or messages, be patient. I am fine and dandy. I'm just going to surround myself with good hearted people.

Christmas break will be here! Khang make Christmas break come now!!! You have magic!!!