School started early for me.
I am registered in 2 courses which actually is equivalent to 4 courses.
I spend 6 hours per class per week.
Holy smokes, I promise to not burn out.
Shopping no longer interests no more. I think I am so turned off by it because I promised or made a resolution to pay off the majority of my debt before my birthday. Originally, I wanted to pay off all my debt but I realized that it was impossible to work that many hours that will most likely jepordize my schooling. However with my 3 seperate debts, 2 had more precedence over the 3rd, I will concentrate on my credit card debt (escalating interest rates!!!!!). I CAN DO IT. I HAVE TO!
You know those dreams you have that are so good and the suspense is peeking and then BAMMMMM you wake up to footsteps in pure disappointment that you will never know the ending of the dream? That was what shopping was to me, an adrenaline rush. I will pop by the mall after every exam, whether be midterms or finals. You know you are shopping way too much when the salesperson knows you by face and remembers what style you are into. You know you shop too much when the manager gives you a special discount. You know you shop way to much when the manager offers you a job more than one occasion. You know you shop way too much when your credit card debt exceeds your limit of ONE card hense you get another credit card to shop some more. What a viscious cycle to which I learned my lesson. Paulina told me about this deal that I absolutely cannot resist but I must. My tuition comes first and my books and bills come next. Crown jeans can wait at that salivating and almost absurd low low price of 60% off. I don't need it. I don't need another pair of designer jeans, not yet. I will go shopping for nice things when I get into nursing.
Then that will be a legitimate reason to go shopping and shower myself with the best and only the best then go to the spa then laze in Mexico? Big dreams duhhh. I also found that shopping relieved my inner demons to which I am (in progress) slowly ridding of it. Other than school, I've been happier with myself. I have friends who I can call my friends. I have a boyfriend, who can be a little frustrating at times, who looks at me and calls me the craziest person he has ever met. I've eaten a lot of really good meals and gained 5 pounds over Christmas break. I've slowly stopped watching tv and then got frustrated with torrents to almost no tv now. Movies are a great escape. I am more content with myself then ever before. Once I get into nursing then I will be really content. I don't ask for much. Just some good luck this year and just smooth sailing. Maybe by the end of the year on Christmas day, santa might send me a bouquet of roses, an acceptance letter to nursing and a good hearty turkey dinner minus the 20 pounds of excess Felicia ;P.
